I think the thing that I have done that is most worth remembering is my relationship. I have managed to alter the life of one person and for the better, I think. I have been a good friend but it is one thing to know it and another when someone verbalizes the quality of person you hope to be and says you are that person. So, for me, I truly believe that is the thing that is worth me remembering the most. That the person I hoped I would become is the person I did become.
I so badly want to do it now. I’ve already tested the waters. But, I was asked to wait a year. I’m not sure I can wait the entire year. I keep asking myself this question. I keep wondering on if there will be that moment where I will no longer be afforded the opportunity to say it. I show it as much as I possibly can but there is a difference between someone assuming it and them knowing it. I just want him to know it.
Experience and allowing yourself to have it.
I was merely existing before I met Thomas. I’m not afraid to admit that. I was in a routine. I had accepted a lot of things and thanks to him he ignited a spark I hadn’t realize that had gone out in me. I’m living more than I have in a long time. And as the song says .. “I’ve got a lot of living to do.”